Psalm 69

To the leader: according to Lilies. Of David.
1 Save me, O God,

    for the waters have come up to my neck.

2 I sink in deep mire,

    where there is no foothold;

I have come into deep waters,

    and the flood sweeps over me.

3 I am weary with my crying;

    my throat is parched.

My eyes grow dim

    with waiting for my God.

4 More in number than the hairs of my head

    are those who hate me without cause;

many are those who would destroy me,

    my enemies who accuse me falsely.

What I did not steal

    must I now restore?

5 O God, you know my folly;

    the wrongs I have done are not hidden from you.

6 Do not let those who hope in you be put to shame because of me,

    O Lord God of hosts;

do not let those who seek you be dishonored because of me,

    O God of Israel.

7 It is for your sake that I have borne reproach,

    that shame has covered my face.

8 I have become a stranger to my kindred,

    an alien to my mother’s children.

9 It is zeal for your house that has consumed me;

    the insults of those who insult you have fallen on me.

10 When I humbled my soul with fasting,

    they insulted me for doing so.

11 When I made sackcloth my clothing,

    I became a byword to them.

12 I am the subject of gossip for those who sit in the gate,

    and the drunkards make songs about me.

13 But as for me, my prayer is to you, O Lord.

    At an acceptable time, O God,

    in the abundance of your steadfast love, answer me.

With your faithful help 14 rescue me

    from sinking in the mire;

let me be delivered from my enemies

    and from the deep waters.

15 Do not let the flood sweep over me,

    or the deep swallow me up,

    or the Pit close its mouth over me.

16 Answer me, O Lord, for your steadfast love is good;

    according to your abundant mercy, turn to me.

17 Do not hide your face from your servant,

    for I am in distress—make haste to answer me.

18 Draw near to me, redeem me,

    set me free because of my enemies.

19 You know the insults I receive,

    and my shame and dishonor;

    my foes are all known to you.

20 Insults have broken my heart,

    so that I am in despair.

I looked for pity, but there was none;

    and for comforters, but I found none.

21 They gave me poison for food,

    and for my thirst they gave me vinegar to drink.

22 Let their table be a trap for them,

    a snare for their allies.

23 Let their eyes be darkened so that they cannot see,

    and make their loins tremble continually.

24 Pour out your indignation upon them,

    and let your burning anger overtake them.

25 May their camp be a desolation;

    let no one live in their tents.

26 For they persecute those whom you have struck down,

    and those whom you have wounded, they attack still more.

27 Add guilt to their guilt;

    may they have no acquittal from you.

28 Let them be blotted out of the book of the living;

    let them not be enrolled among the righteous.

29 But I am lowly and in pain;

    let your salvation, O God, protect me.

30 I will praise the name of God with a song;

    I will magnify him with thanksgiving.

31 This will please the Lord more than an ox

    or a bull with horns and hoofs.

32 Let the oppressed see it and be glad;

    you who seek God, let your hearts revive.

33 For the Lord hears the needy,

    and does not despise his own that are in bonds.

34 Let heaven and earth praise him,

    the seas and everything that moves in them.

35 For God will save Zion

    and rebuild the cities of Judah;

and his servants shall live there and possess it;

36     the children of his servants shall inherit it,

    and those who love his name shall live in it.

Reflection:
Psalm 69 is long. But it begs to be read in its entirety. Pulling a verse or two out and isolating it is like picking your favorite page from Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. It might be a good quote, but you miss the story. You miss the anxiety, the build-up, the climax, and, maybe worst of all, you miss the resolution.

If you didn’t read the whole thing, please do. I’ll wait.

Now, I want you to imagine the most anxious time in your life. You were passed over for the promotion, and now your job might be on the line. You felt like your spouse might be having second thoughts. Your child just said they hate you. You were publicly humiliated. You hated them. You were terrified. You were exhausted. Put yourself there. 

Read it again. That’s where David was.

Now, take a look at your life now. You’re on the other side. However you got through it, you got through it. You’re here today, which means God is faithful and just. God deserves your praise.

That’s where David was, too.

You’re in good company with the man after God’s own heart. Don’t lose yours.  

Closing Prayer:
Almighty God, we are so small. We only see moment to moment. We feel here and now. The now is what matters. But you see it all. We don’t fear tomorrow, because you’re already there. You’ve already worked it out for the good of us who love you. Help us to turn to you, even in our darkest hours. Empower our candor. Embolden our passions and don’t turn away. Your name be praised. Amen.